The East is to the West

Here I am. Can't sleep at 4:00 am, so decided to get up and clean. Had to put on pandora.com and listen to Christian music.

Then I'm listening and this song is what I feel. My anxiousness outweighs what my life reflects. What is this anxious heart about, God?

Here are the lyrics. I lift this day and my heart to you, God. I don't want to push my own will in things and I feel like I am trying to figure it all out without you. So I lay it at your feet. Including my anxious heart.

I need your east to west. More of you, less of me.

CASTING CROWNS LYRICS


"East To West"

Here I am, Lord, and I'm drowning in your sea of forgetfulness
The chains of yesterday surround me
I yearn for peace and rest
I don't want to end up where You found me
And it echoes in my mind, keeps me awake tonight
I know You've cast my sin as far as the east is from the west
And I stand before You now as though I've never sinned
But today I feel like I'm just one mistake away from You leaving me this way

Jesus, can You show me just how far the east is from the west
'cause I can't bear to see the man I've been come rising up in me again
In the arms of Your mercy I find rest
'cause You know just how far the east is from the west
From one scarred hand to the other

I start the day, the war begins, endless reminding of my sin
Time and time again Your truth is drowned out by the storm I'm in
Today I feel like I'm just one mistake away from You leaving me this way

I know You've washed me white, turned my darkness into light
I need Your peace to get me through, to get me through this night
I can't live by what I feel, but by the truth Your word reveals
I'm not holding on to You, but You're holding on to me
You're holding on to me

Jesus, You know just how far the east is from the west
I don't have to see the man I've been come rising up in me again
In the arms of Your mercy I find rest
'cause You know just how far the east is from the west
From one scarred hand to the other
One scarred hand to the other
From one scarred hand to the other